Choices is all mine to make

Back from wedding shoot in Taipei last month. Utterly love Taipei and i adopt well there. High possibility that i might station there to work in future :D trip was a great holiday, not jus relaxing but filled with love from friends.
Best surprise was when Jang appeared in taipei for me! Even though she kinda leaked the surprise but im still thrilled to see her! She was there for my shoot, there for my saddest time, there when we lost our way..How big is her love for me!!!
And whats greater was our relationship was strengthened throughout the relationship! I love this girl from her head to her pinky toe to her "ah-HAA!!" laughter.

Things picked up when we got home. from those weekly castings and auditions, it was translated into weekly filming and shoot. I'm really happy and glad that i have more jobs now. I credit all these to God. Because it was only when i gave my first fruit of building fund, everything broke open. You ask me would it happen even if i don't give? i don't think so.

i'm simply thankful for all of my projects. someone told me that i should put my works, post your work photos on facebook and make myself prominent. Social Marketing, online presence is definitely important if i wish to sell my product/services. but i think i'm still a good old fashioned actor who wish to prove myself by the works. no matter where we are, attitude and character lasts. it really doesnt matter who do u meet or how great the performance because you are nothing if they don't want to work with you again.

I've stopped asking myself why do i want to act already. I'm acting and performing for a purpose. if i were to simply get famous, i can, but what's the point? I don't change anybody by getting famous or becoming rich. But i can change someone if im influential - positively. And it's a call and a choice.

this blog is as good as a private boring diary. no one (i hope) reads and this is just for me to keep track of my life so it's easier for me to write an autobiography when i'm older. :D

Back to day-job. Besides jo who is quite funny-crazy at times, we hardly laugh anymore. the whole department was shaken by the fact that our biz manager left due to politics. been trying very hard to put on a straight face during meetings as well. pointless stress became unbearable and i really, really, am tired of acting a front by saying everything is ok, how ironic! the point is, i'm NOT good at it and i'm not happy. i'm at the age where i should build my lifelong career. i wrote on my organizer to pluck out some courage and submit resignation letter. i'm still trembling while typing. Faith and Fear is still at battle.

Wedding bells will ring in 55days time and i'm pulling my newly permed hair already. i'm not even caring how to pamper myself because unfortunately, my friends who hadn't experience wedding firsthand are as helpless as me. and i dont have time to sit down and explain to them what i need and what shit i'm in. neither do they have time to at least practice dance. i don't really care if there's a surprise party or not because there are more important things to settle. such as, gowns. banquet list. invitation cards. pre-wedding video. gown alterations. pre-wedding photos. fees payable. and not to forget, PIG TROTTERS. i'm still incredulous that mum insisted on 10 cans of pig trotters when my house don't even have enough gas to heat up fried rice. nobody's gonna eat them so why contribute to such sales?! 54 days left and i'm keeping everything quick n concise. Wedding is not fun. :(

little update on projects i've done:

• "In Cold Blood" ep 9. a proper chn 5 debut
• Starhub promo TVC for xmas
• " 注定" ep 7. chn U debut
• Sundrenaline charity runway - first runway, great company, not going to share about the coverage other than the guys weren't really covered. i cant bear to see the photos myself.  
• DBS viral videos which was pretty funny
• Punggol Waterway condo TVC 

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